Not unlike most people, I tend to follow up BIG events with a kind of mental/emotional and physical crash. For example. this has happened after graduating from my master’s program, after my wedding day and most recently, after the marathon.
It becomes this cycle. I can first tell that it’s happening because I have a hard time verbalizing a response to the simple question: “So, how did [insert big event here] go?”
— it’s a simple question, but I often surprise myself by giving really weird responses. Like “oh, it was fine.” (when really, it was AMAZING, etc etc) and basically downplaying the experience. It’s so weird.
Then, I physically start to feel let down. I’ll often get sick after big events (not, like, throwing up sick. but usually a bad cold, or whatever is going around).
Finally, to make myself feel better I obsessively look for the next BIG thing to pour myself into. 2011 was my wedding. 2012 was the marathon. And so on.
I was hoping that yesterday’s run would be just what I needed to turn things around. It was a great first post-marathon run, but didn’t stop me from searching for that next BIG thing. I’m stil searching for that something, and in the meantime, I did sign up for the Diva Dash last night. Some things never change.
Anyways, sorry this post was such a downer! I promise this will be followed up with happy posts — including a BIG announcement!